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TWW fun stuff: 4dp5dt

You guys, I am sick. I think “fun stuff” is going to take on a sarcastic tone today. 

Yesterday my throat started to feel a little raw. I was kind of hoping it was the dry air or ridiculous fluctuating temperature in Boston or something. Nope! Not so. Today I feel like death warmed over. I’m thinking perhaps it’s a sinus infection with a focus on the post nasal drip? 

Aaaaarrrrggghh I’m so uncomfortable! I tossed and turned all night last night. Also … I can’t really take anything can I? I usually trust my life to TheraFlu but I am pretty sure I’m only allowed to take Tylenol and suck on lozenges. So that’s what I’m doing. I also NetiPotted. It didn’t help. Y’all. I need some pity. Or, preferably, magic juju that makes me feel better in the morning. Can I take a decongestant? What am I allowed to do to make me feel better that will not mess up my potential pregnancy?? 

 

On a less self-pitying note, I finished Rulebreaker. I actually quite enjoyed it! And it was only $1.74 or something ridiculous like that!  Alright I’m off to “watch the Oscars” slash grumble about the lack of diversity and the Carol snub slash probably fall asleep real soon. 

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TWW fun stuff: 2 and 3dp5dt

Well, I broke my streak. Ah well, life goes on.

That doesn’t mean there was nothing fun about yesterday though! Yesterday was 2dp5dt, and we had good friends over for dinner, which was really nice. It’s also why I didn’t blog. Em made a delicious veal and mushroom sauce over pasta and our friends brought homemade swiss rolls. Delish.

Other news from yesterday – my best friend is pregnant. There are definitely mixed emotions there. She started trying about 6 or 7 months after us, but her insurance is better than ours in that they started paying for treatment after 6 failed IUIs. She has gone through a lot – 6 natural IUIs, 2 medicated IUIs, and now IVF. Our retrievals were within a week of each other back in December. They didn’t do a fresh transfer because they were doing genetic screening. Her frozen transfer was just over a week before ours this month. And it worked! I’m so happy for them. The twinge of jealousy is there, but I keep trying to remember that I’m “pregnant until proven otherwise” at the moment as well. I definitely feel like this might make it harder than it already would have been if this FET doesn’t work for us. But I’m staying optimistic. I hope that we get to make that same phone call to them next weekend. 🙂

My fun stuff for today: pineapple. I’m sure you’ve all read about pineapple (specifically pineapple core) and how it can help with implantation. The above mentioned friend ate pineapple I think every day after her transfer for a week or so. I was not planning on it, but maybe felt a little peer pressure via pregnancy-announcement-phone-call last night, so I had Em buy me a pineapple this morning. Pineapple core is gross/feels like chewing wood, so I decided to make a smoothie.

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I had Em cut up the pineapple for me, including the core, because I suck at such things. She did a lovely job. I got bananas, frozen strawberries, frozen mango, plain yogurt, and (not pictured) milk.

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I threw the following into the blender:

  • 1/2-2/3 cup frozen mango
  • 3/4-1 cup chopped pineapple (including the core)
  • 1 banana
  • 2 spoonfuls plain yogurt

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Voila! It was pretty delicious. It could probably have used a splash of milk to thin it out but I forgot to put it in so I drank it as is. Our blender did a pretty good job with the pineapple core. There were maybe 1 or 2 little pieces of core that I felt but it was generally smooth. And delish.

Have y’all tried pineapple core? As I was drinking my smoothie I did some internet research as to why people say to eat pineapple core. The source that I found reported that it is because pineapples (especially the core, but also the whole fruit) are a good source of an enzyme called bromelain, which acts like a natural aspirin (anti-inflammatory, blood thinner). So it may help with implantation by helping with inflammation and encouraging increased blood flow to the uterus. BUT that’s also why I’m taking baby aspirin so now I’m worried that I shouldn’t be doubling up. Always something to worry about, right? Jury is out on whether I will put the core into my smoothie tomorrow, but now that I have all of the stuff I’ll definitely be having smoothies with breakfast for the next week or so. 🙂

Plus they’re delicious.

I have been making a conscious effort to improve my healthy eating habits now that I am hopefully hosting a little growing human life. Honestly, Em and I eat fairly healthy in general. Em does all of the cooking (I know, I’m spoiled) – because she loves it and is good at it and we’ve been together since I was 20 so I never really learned. Anyway, we don’t eat out more than once, maybe twice, per week. The meals she cooks are usually made up of whole foods – nothing too processed, fresh proteins and produce, etc. Because of this, my lunches and dinners are well balanced, relatively healthy, and super delicious (I take dinner leftovers for lunch the next day).

My breakfast habits, on the other hand, leave something to be desired. I used to skip it altogether almost every day. Mainly because I am not a morning person and am late to work every day even without stopping to make/eat breakfast in my morning routine. For the past few months I’ve been taking a prenatal that upsets my stomach if I don’t eat right after taking it though, so I have been eating breakfast. The problem is that breakfast ends up being a very unhealthy meal for me. I’ve mostly been eating cereal (and not the whole grain kind) or like coffee cake or something equally terrible for me. This week I’ve been making myself eggs and fruit in the morning. Miraculously (lol, obviously not a miracle, just regular science), I feel fuller longer and have more energy in the mornings. Plus I feel better and I’m not snacking as much during the day (the other eating habit that I am trying to squash).

My new breakfast plan has been: 2 eggs, scrambled, with salt and pepper AND with 1/2 of a chicken apple sausage and a sprinkle of shredded cheese, and a little bit of fruit on the side (a few raspberries or an apple). I’ve also been packing extra fruit as snacks so I’m not tempted to go to the vending machine and buy cheez-its (my guilty pleasure snack) or chips or something. So far so good! I’m going through fruit a little faster than I’d like, but I’m hoping that the good things I’m putting in my body will translate to my body thanking me by holding on to that little embryo in there.

Happy weekend!

TWW fun stuff: 1dp5dt

Look at me blogging two days in a row! What a winner! 

I didn’t finish my book yet. It is keeping me on the edge of my seat a little too much for my current zen-seeking liking so I’m taking it slow. BUT I still have a fun thing for today! 

 

 Who else is obsessed with Hamilton? Anyone? I’ve been obsessively listening since Thanksgiving. Please tell me I’m not the only Hamil-nerd? It’s so goooooodddd. And today I think I almost memorized the lyrics to Guns and Ships. I am very impressive, no? 

Also just did day 2 of my higher progesterone dose. YOU GUYS I JINXED IT. My ass is now super sore on both sides. Ugh. Hopefully it’ll be worth it. 

TWW fun stuff: day 0

By request, I’m going to post about fun stuff – namely whatever lesbian fiction novel I’m reading and maybe also crafty things if I get stir crazy enough to start crafting again – during this TWW. So hang on to your hats, folks.

Today’s BOTD (book of the day?) is Rulebreaker by Cathy Pegau.

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Don’t judge a book by it’s cover?

This is not a book that I would typically pick up (okay, lez be honest, download), but I read a review and that review told me that the book was only $1.74 for Kindle. It seemed interesting enough to give the old college try for less than the cost of a soda, so I went for it. It’s a sci fi romance and I don’t know why I’m writing about it because I’m only 2 chapters in. So far the writing is not terrible (you’d be surprised how many terribly written/edited lesbian romances are out there for the buying), and I’m getting pretty interested in the alternate universe that the author has created. It’s written from the perspective of a woman (Liv) who is a thief. Her ex-husband is also a thief and comes back into her life to rope her into a very big (much-bigger-than-anything-they’ve-done-before) job that Liv decides to do because then she can retire and get away from the ex husband and not have to continue to live the boring menial life she has now.

That’s about all I know so far but the blurb says that she is going to go undercover as the assistant to a woman who is the VP at a big company. Liv is supposed to steal secrets I think, but instead she falls in love with the VP I’m assuming. Honestly I’m much more invested than I expected to be given that it’s not typically a story I’d jump at reading, so hopefully that continues as I get further into the book. But also I’ve barely started it so this is most certainly not a review.

I do most of my reading on a Kindle. I was one of those people who, up until a year ago, was anti-Kindle because real books smell so good and technology is bad and what is this world coming to?! But then I started reading lesbian fiction which is hard to come by in actual hard copy at a bookstore, and there are no more gay bookstores anymore anyway, and oh, hey, look, Kindle books are also a lot cheaper than real books … so I gave in. And I’m a total 100% convert because it’s so light and it can hold hundreds of books and (honestly, this is the big one) instant gratification you guys.

So for about 6-9 months or so I’ve been reading on a Kindle. I’ve read upwards of 140 books, mostly lesbian fiction, in that time (yeesh, I know), and they all fit on my Kindle so I can re-read them whenever the hell I want and also there’s still TONS of room left for more. But the point of all of this rambling is that I recently organized my Kindle books into neat little folders and it makes me so so happy. It also makes me a little tiny bit embarrassed at how many queer romance novels (okay, they’re not all straight up romance novels but if we’re being honest they all have at least a little romance in them) I’ve read. But obviously not embarrassed enough to share this fact with the internet. So LOOK at all of my neat little folders! There are 3 pages of them! I put all of my unread books in one place! And I can find my favorite authors and series so easily! GUSH

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OMG so pretty

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Can you even?

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I can’t even

What are y’all reading? (it doesn’t have to be lesfic for me to care)

Oh! If you are into lesfic though, you should definitely check out this website – I get the weekly e-mail and follow them on Twitter as well. When I run out of books that I know I want to read (favorite authors, etc), The Lesbian Review is my first stop to find something new to read. I also look at top sellers on Amazon and lists on Goodreads, but that can be too much info to sort through sometimes! And I think that the Amazon best sellers lists get kind of skewed by books that are eligible for Kindle Unlimited (you can pay monthly for free access to certain books) – there are some great lesfic books eligible for Kindle Unlimited but there are also a lot of under edited books on there that get “best seller” status because when lots of people download them because they’re free but not because they’re good. I have nothing to do with The Lesbian Review by the way, just passing along a resource that I like 🙂

So that’s my fun stuff for today. Let’s see if I can get my adult together enough to post something tomorrow too? A girl can dream!

Quick fertility update: I got my progesterone results back. The nurse said it was at 16, which is probably fine but they like to see it at 20 so I get to up my PIO dose to 2mL per day. She gave me the option of adding a second shot in the morning or just doubling the dose in my evening shot. Uhhhhh, why would I choose to get poked twice as much?! So tonight we will see how Em does when it takes twice as long. Oh joy.

Are hiccups a good sign?

Are hiccups a good sign?

My Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET) was today! I totally meant to post beforehand you guys, I just got really bad at blogging and also at adulting.

So if you haven’t been following along at home – we did a fresh cycle back in December, which was unsuccessful, and ended up with 1 embryo that was good enough to freeze, rated 4AA (which is really good! good job little guy!). I’ve been on a drug protocol since starting my period this month (on February 4th) of escalating Estrogen (via Estrace pills and eventually also a patch), Baby Aspirin, and have been doing Progesterone In Oil (PIO) shots since Thursday. You guys, I used to swallow pills 1 by 1, isn’t that hilarious? It would take me 10 minutes every morning and night if I did that now …

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Nightly meds: Metformin, Estrace, and Baby Aspirin

Quick aside re: the PIO shots … Em has managed to totally avoid all interaction with needles throughout this process. That means she was not in the room for any of the 8 trigger shots during our medicated IUI cycles, or ANY of my 3 shots/day during stims in November/December. This didn’t really bother me because she is very supportive but just doesn’t like needles and doesn’t understand why I would “do that to myself” (even though she does, of course, understand why I was doing that to myself). Anyway, all of those shots were subcutaneous (for n00bs: that means they go in your belly with a tiny skinny needle because they just need to get into the fat to absorb). PIO is an intramuscular shot, so it needed to go into my ass with a huge giant long needle. And I can’t see my ass, so she had to do it. I have to give her credit but she pretty much cried after the first 2. By last night she seemed almost blasé about it. Although she does keep asking if I can just back up into it so she doesn’t have to jab me …

I was pretty nervous about the PIO because I kept reading about welts and burning and soreness and such. I’m actually kind of worried that it isn’t going in or something? Because I haven’t had any welts (the nurse wanted to check if we were doing it in the right spot today and was like “… I can’t see where you did it?”) or soreness. Maybe a little burning on the way in. I’ve been icing for like a minute or two before doing the shot, and massaging the injection site afterward with a paper towel. I get a tiny bit of bleeding each time. So I don’t know … hopefully we’re doing it right. They drew bloods for a progesterone level check today so I guess we’ll find out.

Okay back to business … so we had our FET of our only embryo today around noon. You have to have a full bladder for the transfer (which was the worst during the fresh cycle because everything down there was so sore … so even a partially full bladder was actually super painful), and I apparently am adequately hydrated so after drinking the recommended 2-3 cups of water (I didn’t even have the full 2) I was about to wet myself. I asked them to let me let a little bit out while waiting because you have to sit there and wait your turn for an hour, and they let me, but then I seemed to fill up again within 2 minutes. When I finally went back and they put the ultrasound on to check how full I was, the nurse was like, “Are you comfortable? You can go pee for like 15 seconds and still be fine …” which was obviously an angel speaking.

We got a little picture of our little embaby. This was a picture post-thaw and they said it looked perfect (they probably say that to all the girls). Here’s hoping that this is finally our turn and that all of the stars have aligned.

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Mommies’ little blastocyst

I took the whole day off work and now I’m sitting at home under a blanket, watching the rain, and relaxing (well, trying my best to relax). I had thought about trying acupuncture again but ended up deciding against it. I think I ruled it out as something that would be helpful for me a year or so ago after I had been doing it for 3/4 of a year’s worth of IUIs without any noticeable change.

My test date is apparently 3/7, which is 12dp5dt. What the hell?! I’ve never heard of anyone waiting that long. I thought that 9dp5dt was pretty standard. I’m like 110% sure I’ll do a HPT before that but grr. Anyone else’s clinic wait that long to test after a 5dt? Oh, another important question: has anyone else been told to avoid orgasm until their pregnancy test?! That’s another one I wasn’t prepared for. I remember reading it after my retrieval and assuming it was because of the surgery business. And also it hurt too much to thinking about that anyway. I didn’t think I’d have to go another 12 days … would have had a different last couple of nights if I knew, that’s for sure … Sigh.

Anyway, now I have the hiccups and they won’t go away! I’m usually pretty good at vanquishing hiccups with breath holding or water or trying to remember what I wore yesterday. These are some stubborn-ass hiccups. It’s probably a sign, right?

Missed Estrace dose? Help!

Okay so I’m supposed to be takin 3mg Estrace (3 pills) in the morning and at night. I completely forgot this morning and realized when I got home (just now). Have any of y’all done that? Is it totally going to screw up my bloodwork tomorrow? 

I called the on call fertility doctor and am waiting for a call back. Feels like a foolish thing to call an “emergency” line about but since I have bloodwork tomorrow it feels like a bigger deal. 

Argh I hate obsessing about this crap. Advice? 

FET is a-go-go

It’s on like Donkey Kong.

My period took her damn time showing up so we are pushing right up against my insurance approval deadline, but it looks like everything is going to work out. FET is currently scheduled for February 24th if all things go to plan.

My protocol:

  • Estradiol 1mg 2x/day days 1-5
  • Estradiol 2mg 2x/day starting today (day 6)
  • I forget if/how much the Estradiol goes up after that …
  • Baby aspirin/low-dose aspirin (81mg) 1x/day
  • Progesterone in Oil (oh joy) starting around day 15 I believe

I’m currently waiting for Caremark/UPS to get their shit together and get me my PIO shots so that I have them at home. I’m glad I get anal and order meds early because they were scheduled to show up on Friday, but UPS apparently didn’t deliver because of the snow. (We had a snow storm in Boston on Friday, and then another one yesterday). It’s a weekday delivery so it sat in a warehouse over the weekend and was then supposed to be delivered yesterday, but we had a “snow storm” (this time everyone was being a pussy – it was just snow, not a storm, and the roads were fine) but the PIO didn’t arrive so I’m guessing UPS called in another “emergency.” I’m kind of worried that the meds will be bad because they’re sitting in weird temperatures so I’ll have to figure out what to do about that if I ever get the damn shots.

You warm-climate folks can shut it but for anyone up north – have you had any issues with meds freezing while they are waiting for you to bring them inside? The lady on the phone at Caremark fertility pharmacy told me that PIO is a room temperature med and that it shouldn’t be frozen. Giving them a major benefit of the doubt that it didn’t sit in below-freezing temperatures in a warehouse all weekend, if it gets delivered today it’s going to sit in some snow on my porch in 20 degree weather … is that going to be an issue? Ugh.

Has anyone else had a similar FET protocol? Baby aspirin opinions?

In other news, I’ve read 4 lesbian fiction novels in the last week. And I did some Kindle math and have read like 130 in the last year. Please send help. Or send money so I can just read about lesbians falling in love/fighting crime/being part of conspiracies/doing it/whatever else all day long and not have to go to work.

Happy February, y’all.

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