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TTC 2.0 is on

Now that I’m back on the blogging wagon, a few updates on the TTC front. I got my period on Thursday, so today was CD3, which means I went in for my follow-up ultrasound. I was more than a little nervous that Larry the cyst hadn’t packed up and left yet, and that I’d end up pulling my hair out during yet another cancelled cycle.

Luckily for us, that was not to be! This time around, my wife accompanied me to the ultrasound, which was really nice. Actually, it was also satisfying – I had told her last time about my experience with the less-than-comfortable dildo wand, and she didn’t really give me the sympathy I was hoping for. This time around she got to see it, and I got plenty of sympathy today!

Since it is Saturday, my doctor and nurses were not in the clinic – I just went in to see the ultrasound tech. I have to say, I enjoyed this tech much better than my previous one. She told us everything she was doing and looking at throughout the whole thing, which I really appreciated. She also let me insert the wand myself – I must say, it was much less violating that way. Although she clearly isn’t my doctor and can’t officially read the ultrasound and report results – she did not see a cyst. I watched, and there was certainly nothing there. A couple of underdeveloped follicles on each ovary (like 2-3 mm), which I believe is what they would expect for cycle day 3.

She did mention that my lining was very thin, which would indicate that I have already shed most of it, which leads me to my next point – my periods this month and last both seemed rather light to me. I know that my lining is supposed to be thin at this point in my cycle, but it seemed like she was surprised at the thin-ness of it. I also know that I am totally reading into things probably in a crazy-lady-obsessive way, but I’m worried about my current ability to build up a good enough lining. I am now going to crazy-lady-obsessively Google ways to ensure a nice juicy lining for a little embryo to nest in. Am I being obsessive? Anyone have any tips and tricks for getting a good lining?

In terms of the plan – as far as I know we are on for another unmedicated IUI cycle. A nurse from my RE’s office (no one I’ve talked to in the past) called and said that the ultrasound was all clear and that we are good to go for this cycle. I can’t remember if anyone had mentioned doing this cycle medicated, so I’m going to call back on Monday, but I’m assuming I’m on for another natural cycle. I have been ovulating, albeit fairly late, and I think my RE wants to try to let my body do its own thing if it can. I tend to agree, though of course I also want to speed things along.

A couple of hiccups that I’m hoping don’t mess with things for me:

  • We have 3 weddings to attend in the next 6 weeks, one of which I’m a bridesmaid in. It actually might be 5 weeks. I am just hoping that my O doesn’t fall on a day that I am out of town or in the middle of a wedding-related obligation. I’m pumped for all of the weddings though (especially for my best friend’s).
  • I’m also leaving the country for a conference that I’m really excited about. This is actually the event that actually has the potential to throw things off for me. I have ovulated on CD 24, 33, and 27 in my 3 most recent cycles. I’m boarding a plane out of the country on CD30 this cycle. If you all are the positive-vibe-sending types, send me some vibes for an earlier O this cycle! I will be so super bummed if I have to miss another cycle because of the one thing I really can’t get around. On the plus side, if I do ovulate before CD30, I’ll have a really baller built-in distraction for a good chunk of the 2WW!

So my plan for now is to think happy thoughts, keep going to acupuncture (and specifically ask him to work on thickening my lining and telling my body to quit dawdling with the ovulation business), increase my exercise and healthy/fertility-friendly eating habits, call the RE on Monday to make sure that we’re a-go for a natural cycle, start using OPKs in about a week,and hope hope hope that this is my cycle for a BFP. Although I’ve been a bit silent on here, I’m reading along every day, and am so excited for the BFPs this month, and of course feeling just as bummed but determined as all of you who are still waiting for that BFP. ttc meme

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Playing catch up

It appears I was a bit MIA last cycle. There’s not much to say on a TTC blog during an off-cycle apparently. Of course, now that we’re back on (more on that in a bit), I realize that I probably did have some things to say. So here they are, in no particular order:

  • If you’re keeping track at home, this last cycle was 40 days long. I ovulated (confirmed by temps and positive OPK) on CD27. Previous 2 cycles were 44 days (O on CD33) and 37 days (O on day 24). I wish they were a) shorter and b) more consistent, but beggars can’t be choosers. (Reminder: I had no period at all from late July through December of last year)
  • I lost 20 pounds in 3 months – from late January through my first IUI (late April) – and have not lost or gained an ounce since. I’m pretty disappointed in myself, I was really on a roll and I just let it all go to shit after my BFN and subsequent cyst and cancelled cycle. My desire to get back on the bandwagon is totally back, but my willpower hasn’t caught up yet.
  • Acupuncture: I’ve been going every week since I last posted. I’ve been 6 times in total. I started taking herbs after the 3rd visit, and did so for 2 weeks. I’m not sure whether he’ll have me start them again, but he didn’t recommend I buy more this week. They are NOT very tasty, but after the first week he told me I could add honey, which was a significant improvement.

The month off was both freeing and frustrating. For the first couple of weeks, it felt like a relief – nothing to stress about and wait for, eat whatever I want, no sticks to pee on … But given my long-ass cycles, that free feeling started to turn into frustration over all of the waiting, letting time pass by without doing anything to get me good and pregnant. 44 days felt like a freaking lifetime! On the docket for distractions the last 6 weeks:

A quick trip to the shore with my wife and the in-laws.

A quick trip to the shore with my wife and the in-laws.

Enjoying the beautiful summer weather in the city.

Enjoying the beautiful summer weather in the city.

Not pictured: a visit from my brother during which we saw 2 plays, went to a movie, and took an epic kayaking trip. Also, Pride was last weekend. The energy at this year’s parade was really excellent and we had a blast all weekend.

And, if I wasn’t going to create myself a little human this month, I at least got to see my garden grow! I’ll leave you all with a few pics of the progress.

The "before" shot - I think it was taken a day after planting. This whole garden was from scratch this year.

The “before” shot – I think it was taken a day after planting. This whole garden was from scratch this year.

And the "after" shot (more like the "current progress" shot) taken the other day.

And the “after” shot (more like the “current progress” shot) taken the other day. Try to ignore the fact that I need to weed pretty badly, and that those perennials in the front need CPR.

Can you see the little peppers growing in there?

Can you see the little peppers growing in there?

Snap peas too! Still waiting on the tomatoes and green beans.

Snap peas too! Still waiting on the tomatoes and green beans.

 

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